Yesterday, when I left for work, I overwhelmingly felt from the Lord that *this is the day you'll hear from your mortgage company.* Sure enough, I logged onto my account and had this notice: "your paperwork was sent today, please sign and return your forms as soon as possible." So, what should arrive via UPS today? My mortgage modification documents.
I gleefully ripped them open and began wading through all of the terminology and numbers. Basically, what it boils down to is this: I AM OVERWHELMINGLY FAVORED. Seriously. I was praying for a specific number. This number meant that should I chose to walk away to missions, I could rent my house with no extra needing to be paid on it by me. So, drumroll....my new mortgage payment is actually almost $150 lower than even this number. What this means is that when I rent my house, I will actually be MAKING money off of the rent! Can you get any better than that???
So, here's the bottom line. I have some debt. If I do this the way I think it will work out. I can take the next six months, pay off my debt and even make a few upgrades to the house (stuff like adding a sprinkler system to make it easier to maintain when I am gone etc.) and be free and clear to go, if that's what I am going to do.
Now comes the hard part....what am I "going" towards? I feel like this answer is a clear "yes" to going, but the bigger question is: what is my heart beating to go towards? I feel like this whole process has been a big one for me in determining what exactly it is that I want to do.....do I want to "go" to Call2All? Do I want to "Go" with YWAM and do a DTS? Do I want to "Go" with some other missions organization? Or, do I really "Go" out on a limb like the girl in my previous blog and do something really wild and crazy like move to Kenya and start my own orphanage?
Every time I pray about this, I feel like the answer will be so clear by September. Not that I'll be gone by then, but that I'll know the answer by then.