Thursday, March 18, 2010
I am still faced with this decision about what to do this fall: DTS? Call2All without a DTS? Stay in Tacoma for a while longer?
Practically, I can't make the decision yet. I am still waiting to hear back from my mortgage company, though the answer there could be as early as this week some time. However, I am finding myself increasingly distracted. I am distracted by things that have no bearing on my decision whatsoever.
The problem is that in the past, I have made decisions based off of these things. It is a part of maturing and growing in Christ that we refine and whittle down our criteria for making a decision until it is Christ alone whom we follow and not circumstances, nor people, nor feelings/emotions, nor anything in this world. I'm giving myself grace for previous decisions I've made based off of similar distractions to those popping up right now.
However, that does not mean that it isn't tempting to fall back into old patterns.
I find myself frequently literally chopping the air around me to break off thoughts (which is probably pretty funny looking to people who don't know what I'm doing) or praying fervently to take thoughts captive (by the way if anyone has practical tools for how to do this, I'd love them) or having to repeat to myself over and over again the truth about what is happening around me (out loud, which is also pretty funny probably to people).
Anyway, continue to pray for clarity on my decision, that I would not be distracted by things that should not affect my decision!