Wednesday, October 18, 2006

I Promise I am still Alive

However, extremely exhausted all the time. Seriously, if you are of the praying type, please pray for me. Most of the last six years I have had trouble falling asleep. The last three weeks, I have been having the exact opposite problem. I can't seem to GET enough sleep, and even when I do, I am tired all the next day. I feel like I am fighting off some sort of illness, but I have not actually had any symptoms other than feeling like I could fall asleep at the drop of a hat. I am drained, and feel like I am walking around in a fog all day. I have zero energy. I have been praying through a lot of stuff myself, and wonder if there is not something spiritual going on, but if this continues much longer, I will have to take myself to the Dr.

So, my updates have been few and far between. I just do not have the energy to hardly check my email, much less write about what has been going on with me.

I do have a few brief updates:
1. I have another part time job. I am the administrative assistant for Harborview Fellowship church in Gig Harbor. A sister church to Newsong and a lot of friends of mine go there. They participate in a lot of our conferences and there is a tight relationship there. It is 20 hours a week in the afternoons after preschool stuff is done for the day.
2. Preschool is still going well. Not much new to report.
3. Jackie moved out and into a house where Remann Hall girls just getting out of juvenile detention can come and hang out etc. This has always been her heart and was a last minute opportunity that she just could not pass up. So, I am looking for a fourth roomate again. This has also led to some slight modifications upstairs while I am the only one up there. Closet is in a new spot and office is now where the closet was. Much better arrangement.
4. I have moved beyond just being at peace with not moving to London to being eternally grateful that I am not there. This would require a MUCH longer post, but I am being brought back to life by the Lord after years of feeling dead. If I was in London, I am thoroughly convinced that I would still be "dead" but "dead" in London. There has been so much of an awakening in my spirit the last few weeks that I would not trade for any length of time in London. I am reading scriptures about the bride of Christ being asleep and I am realizing "that's me!" I am actually further than asleep,....I have been dead. I have been crying out to the Lord to "resurrect my heart" and He is doing it. The work is not complete, but I feel more intimacy with Him now than I have in years. That is not an exaggeration. Years.

Anyway, that's all for now. I need to go and make dinner if I can muster the energy. Please pray....this can't be good.

1 comment:

  1. Amen to being alive! glad the Lord is revealing himself to you. working with kids will wear you out like nobody's business for the first year. i'll be praying for you. lots of love. call me soon!