Monday, December 27, 2010
A Year in Reflection
-still live in the same house with the same housemates.
-still long to be on the missions field.
-still work at the same job at the zoo.
-still have two health issues I have not been healed from.
-still long to be married and have kids.
-still watch every cent as it comes in and out of my account.
-still keenly feel the lack of fellowship in my life.
-still continue to lose friends over the course of this year.
However, this year has been surprising as well.
I started last year:
-pretty committed to a couple of ministries. I am now no longer involved in those things. This is likely just a pause and not permanent, who would have predicted that it would happen at all? Especially considering how much of my significance I put in what I was doing.
-financially sinking. A great renegotiation with my mortgage company, two raises at work, and getting my budget under control while simultaneously becoming a couponing queen have helped get this area at least manageable.
-broken in my relationship with the Lord. This is an something I didn't even realize at the beginning of the year. But, as the year draws to a close, this is one area I have to say has become a source of joy and peace I didn't know I was missing. By doing the exact opposite of what I thought I should be doing and focusing on Him instead of activities about Him....this has made all the difference. It seems so basic, so elementary, but when I have focused on keeping the first commandment first....the peace and joy flow from that. When I am NOT at peace with my life or myself...that is a barometer of where I am focused and where I am finding my significance. The last three to four months of this year have been some of the most peaceful and stable that I can remember in a long time.
Every year I pray about what I am hoping will happen for the upcoming year. This year I am 6 for 10. I was praying to get to travel abroad...I got to do this. I was praying about dropping the weight I'd gained back...I got to to do this. I was praying about getting an opportunity to do some teaching...I got to do this. There are a few others in the list that I got to check off and a few key ones that I didn't. I think last year I was 3 or 4 out of 10. So, I am improving! Next year, let's hope I am 10 for 10!
Blessings to you and yours in this upcoming year!